Almost 2011!

I wanted to write one last post during 2010, just to list some things I want to remember, be grateful, or whatever comes to mind.

5 good things that happened to me in 2010:

1. I started high school!

2. I made a ton of new friends.

3. I'm closer to knowing who I am.

4. I've accomplished many, many things, but have new aspirations.

5. I've become closer to my real friends.

4 not-so-good things that happened to me in 2010:

1. On of my best friends passed away.

2. I've become distanced from my sister.

3. I didn't accomplish a lot of things that I'd have liked to.

4. I lost touch with important people.

I have so many goals and things I want to do in the new year. I'm going to write another post !next year! about my resolutions and goals.

God bless A.O. [7.31.2010] Missed, loved, never forgotten.

High school has been good so far, but I haven't taken full advantage of it. I'm sorry to all the friends I've grown apart from, but I promise we'll reconnect this new year.

I can't wait until 2011, because I've got so many things I want to do!

Peace, love, and happy new year!

Slow down.

I know I haven't posted in a while and I do have topics I would like to write about, but I'm not going to right now because it's past my bedtime.

Anyway, today is my fifteenth birthday. I don't feel fifteen. I don't feel older. All I feel is scared. It doesn't seem right for me to be fifteen. Obviously, I don't want to be forever young and I do want to live a full life, but it's going by so quickly. I just want everything to slow down. I want to be able to feel each emotion and stay in the moment, but it's hard when the world is moving so fast.

In my next couple of posts, I'll be writing about veganism, happiness, my birthday, time management, growing up, Taylor Swift, and anything else that comes to mind.

Peace, love, and simplicity. Always.

Speak Now

I know if my dad catches me writing this, he's going to be angry, because it's late, but I am just so excited! Taylor Swift's new album, Speak Now, is being released in less than half an hour. I know that I'm probably not going to get the album until Tuesday, but it is just too amazing!

It's going to change my life, just like everything else she does. To school tomorrow, I am going to wear my white Taylor Swift shirt, that I bought at her October 9 concert last year. I have never worn it, but I'm excited to. I want to paint a 13 on my hand, like Taylor does, but I don't know if that's going to work out.

I recently found out that one if the girls on my volleyball team is just as in love with Taylor Swift as I am! She was surprised to hear that the only single I've listened to is 'Mine'. I don't know why, but I just want to listen to the album as a whole. I want it to be special.

I'll take a picture when I get the album and I'll probably either write a blog post, tell you on FaceBook, or both.

Peace, love, simplicity, and Taylor Swift. <3

Bahdahdah.

♫Taste you on my tongue, with your lips to kiss like the red, hot sun. You're one big sugar rush. Suck me in, suck me in, hold me down 'til the very end!♫



Life is good. Yesterday was the Freshmen Dance at my high school. For my very first high school dance, it was really great! I learned what juking (http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=juking) is, though not by experience I am proud to say. It's really interesting to me how different the dancing is from grade school to high school. At the dance, people weren't holding back or being awkward or anything like that. It was very cool.



The dance ended badly. A girl either popped her knee out or she broke her leg. People aren't sure. Either way, we were evacuated, there was an ambulance, and we get a free dance next Friday. Lose-win?

As for the educational part of school, I think I'm doing pretty well. I have all As and Bs, which quite lovely. :) I'm trying to balance school, sports, clubs, and a social life, and I'm getting there. For sports, I did volleyball and I am going to try out for bowling. I don't think I am going to do basketball because 1. I really don't want to add another activity to my schedule and 2. I think I'd be playing for my dad and I refuse to do that. If I'm going to do something, it's going to be for me, because this is my life.

I've been to Polish Club and Christian Club meetings, and I missed the first French Club, Key Club, and Cereal Club meetings. I haven't heard anything about the Baking, GSA, and Vegetarian clubs. I am not joining the Polish, French, or Cereal Clubs, but I am definitely doing Christian Club. I don't know about any of the others, but we'll see and I'll let you know.

I am very sleepy. Today, I found out that someone who sits very near me at lunch and who told me to add him on FaceBook is the cousin of someone in my graduating class. What a small world, no? I find it to be absurd that I know that particular person in over 4,000 people.

I think I'm a pretty honest person. I like to keep everything in the open, so there is not confusion as to my morals, likes, dislikes, and life, in general. It feels good to have people really know you. BUT, I want to be completely honest. I don't lie consciously, but I want to make sure I don't do so subconsciously. Plus, I want to be sure that my friends know of any skeletons I have. My skeletons like to hang out on the dance floor, not in a closet. So, I would like to post at least one completely honest thing about myself on FaceBook at least every week. That would make me happy.

I'll talk to y'all in a few days. LaYtAh. ♥

Glorious Day

Hey, readers! Since I last typed to you, I started ye olde high school. It is so awesome! I have tons of friends from volleyball and I'm meeting people in my classes. It's hard to believe that I just finished my first 4 weeks of high school!

Last Monday was Club Day for the Freshmen, where all the clubs set up tables in the cafeteria and you sign up for whatever you're interested in joining. You go to the first meetings and, if you don't like them, you don't ever have to go again. Pretty free, no? Any-who, I signed up for Polish Club, French Club, Cereal Club (yes, it believe it will be as cool as it sounds), Baking Club (I'd say about 1/4 of the Freshies signed up for this one), Vegetarian Club (one day...), GSA, Christian Club and, Key Club. I think I might have forgotten one, but, oh well. I'll continue with this topic later in the post.

Today, as you can tell from the title, was indeed glorious. Yesterday, I left my folder (in which I keep EVERYTHING) in my first period class. I went back to get it right before lunch and a different teacher was there and [older] people were presenting something. I ran in, the teacher gave me a really weird look, looked around for the folder, and ran out, because it wasn't in sight. I freaked out about that all day yesterday, but today was a new day.

When I went to my first period class, there it was, with everything still in it. That started my high. In Algebra, my second period class, we were assigned a mini-project. Whoever does the mini-project the neatest will receive extra-credit points on their next test. Drafting was fun, as always. P.E./Health was good and watched a video that everyone else thought was cheesy, but I loved it. Lunch was fine and I got to meet new people and talk to a new-ish friend. Biology. This class is where one of the high points of my high school career so far happened. So, there's this boy... ;) Anyway, it ended with him putting his arm around my shoulders and my putting my arm around his waist. This happened while he was blindfolded, mind you, but he did it deliberately. In French, we were assigned a family tree project that is going to be so much fun and in World Studies, we took a test. This test wasn't necessarily hard, but I know I got a few points off. Eh, it's a give-and-take.

After school, I went to my very first club meeting of my high school career. It was for Christian Club and it was so fun! I met a lot of people who seems like they would be fun to hang out with. :) My friend's friend, who is also in Christian Club, Polish Club, and the GSA, lives near me, went to a school near me, and takes the same bus and train home as me. On the bus, she and a random girl struck up a conversation and they had so much in common! They sounded like they were really good friends, but they were complete strangers. I love coincidences. >

All days should be as glorious as this. My description may not sound very brilliant, but the natural high I had all day was fabulous.

Yet another blog post all.about.me. Eh, it's my blog, I suppose. I'll have something more worldly next time, which will not be 2 months from now. Sorry 'bout that. Love ya'll.

Peace, love, and simplicity. *hearts*

P.S. Let me know how your day was in the comments...

Bettering myself and others.

Hello, there. I think I'll do 2 blogs today, because I have 2 ideas that don't exactly relate well in one blog.

Yesterday was my family reunion! It was extremely fun and I love to get together with people I rarely get to see. My sister and I almost took the trophy for horseshoes, which we had never played before, but got beaten out by two of our uncles. Ah, well; it was fun nonetheless.

Recently, a few bad things have happened in my life. A few weeks ago, I had that tragedy and, now, another one occurred. I want this to stop. I know I need to take care of myself and I know that my friends and family need to do the same.

Quite a few of my family members smoke and it drives me crazy. Not only can I barely tolerate the smell of smoke, but it's just plain disgusting. Why would you want to put your body through that? I know tobacco is supposed to be really addictive, but I know someone (who I look up to) quit with sheer determination. No special pills or gum or patches, just will. If they can do it, cold-turkey, why can't other people? It confounds me.

I think I might start a sort of family campaign to better our lives. Maybe something with getting people to stop smoking, start eating healthier, or exercising more. That would be really fun! Plus, I know something has to be done. Almost every single one of my elders has at least one medical problem. They blame it on old age, but I know it's not only that. We have to start taking care of ourselves and each other.

In order to evade hypocrisy, I am going to better myself, as well. I will start eating healthier and exercising regularly (God knows I will, with all these volleyball practices). I will detox myself and become the healthiest I can be. I know I can get out of this rut and make myself feel better. I can start by eating less junk food and taking walks more often. Just the little things, no extremes.

I feel decisively determined.

Peace, love, and simplicity. *heart*

Moo.

I know I haven't posted in a while. Just sortin' things out.

Since my last post, I made my high school's freshmen volleyball team! Woohoo! All the girls are really nice and funny. It feels like I've known them for a longgggggg time. Our first game is this upcoming Monday and I am excited! We get to take buses to the away games and we get taken out of class early on days we have earlier games. It's much different from grade school volleyball. The practices are longer and harder. They really push us and the conditioning is killer, but it makes me stronger.

Yesterday I watched Cinderella, just because I felt like it. I might watch the second one tomorrow. I love watching G-rated movies. They make me feel good, for some reason.

School begins in 19 days and I am super-excited! I was weary before, but making the volleyball team kind of reassured me that going there was the right decision. I made a schedule for a project that I have to do (due the second day of school) and, as usual, I am not following it. I should be doing that. By the by, I still have no idea what I'm doing for the science fair project. This is no good because the entire first semester is devoted to it. *thuds head on wall*

I am going to go work on working on the other project. Wish me luck!

Peace, love, and simplicity. *heart*

Hello again.

Greetings to my reader(s). (Hi, Aunt Wendy!) I would like to thank you for your patience with me and my lack of posts in the recent past. Like I said, serious tragedy.

Anyway...

I've decided that I am going to live my life to the fullest. I'm not quite sure how to go about doing this, but I am sure-as-heck going to try. To start this adventure, I am going to list some things that I already like to do and things I'd like to try.

I like to cook, read, run, walk, build, tend to plants (only a few), write, play music, listen to music, watch videos on YouTube, go to office supply stores, go to independent stores, see movies, be independent, and spend time with my friends and family. Building off these things and adding more, I'd like to take cooking classes or teach myself to cook, read books I wouldn't ordinarily read, walk more often, perhaps start creating things, plant plants in pots, start writing the novel I planned to write (due date = May 2nd, 2011), perhaps start writing music, seek out new music that I would not ordinarily listen to, go to a movie by myself, go to a new restaurant by myself, do things by myself (to prepare for "the real world"), start making videos on YouTube, design stationary, venture to new independent stores, spend more time with my friends and family, and go horseback riding.

I know that, if I do these things more often, I will increase my quality of life, which is exactly what I'm trying to do. I don't want to feel so tired anymore. I don't want to sit at home all the time. I don't want to reject invitations from my friends just because I don't feel like hanging out. I will make the most of my childhood and life. I don't want to have so many regrets. I want to live.

I've recently been advised to try things by myself. Things like going to a movie, going to a restaurant, going into a store, etc. I've been reading things that make me know that I need to learn how to become independent. It's vital. I will become more independent, but I will not lose my friends and family. I will make more friends and I will not settle into a comfortable rut. I will get out of my current rut.

This is starting today. No more fear! I will post my progress.

Peace, love, and simplicity. (heart)

Delay.

I know I haven't posted recently, but a very serious tragedy occured in my life. I can't go into detail, out of respect, but please pray for me. I'll be posting more often, but I just need time to collect myself. Sorry. ♥

Thinking.

Right now, I have this heart-aching-breath-is-caught-in-my-throat feeling. I believe it's because I have the immense need to hug this certain person. Hmm.

Today, while eventful, had very few noteworthy events. I got up, started making a calendar for August, ran a bunch of errands with my father, had a slight fiasco, rented 6 movies, and watched one and a fifth of said movies.

The fiasco. Long story short, it involved my sister getting angry at me concerning paper, but it ended happily with some ice cream.

Yesterday, I went swimming again! The water was refreshing at first, but it quickly became frigid. I went to my grammy's after, which was also fun. :)

I recently stumbled upon a song called "The Only Exception" by Paramore. For some odd reason, it makes me think about my graduating class.

I've been thinking a lot about regrets lately. It could be because I just watched "I Love You, Beth Cooper", but I think it started before then. I'll expand that thought soon, but I'm typing this on my phone because my computer is angry, so it's a bit frustrating.

TTFN.

Peace, love, and simplicity. <3

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Renaissance Faire!

This year's Bristol Renaissance Faire was awesome! I wore my blue and purple flowered dress, that has a layer of tulle which gives the skirt a slightly poofy look. I love it.

Let's start from the beginning, shall we? The clouds made my sister and uncle, along with the other Faire-goers a bit weary about the conditions of the day, but I was confident that it wouldn't rain much more. The sky did indeed perk up and let the sun shine down for a while. It was quite comfortable.

We got there just after the opening ceremony and had to wait awhile for my uncle's friends to come. When we did get into the Faire, my sister and I split off from the group to shop for about an hour. We found our group at one of the many Gypsy Geoff shows that occurred that day. My uncle's friend's wife's grandson even got to be part of the show and challenged Geoff for a duel.

After that, we walked around some more and got lunch. My sister and I shared a bowl of garlic mushrooms and a bread stick and, while they weren't very filling, they were delicious. We saw Moonie after that, which I said recently was one of my favorite shows. I don't remember the order of the rest of the day, but I do know what happened.

All the shows that we watched are Moonie, Barely Balanced Acrobatics (very entertaining), part of Gypsy Geoff, and the Washing Well Wenches. The Washing Well Wenches was, by far, my favorite show. This year was the first I had seen it and it was absolutely hilarious! Both the women (wenches), Dottie and Ruby, reminded me of people I know or have seen movies of. They were so entertaining and they really got the audience involved. Though I won't go into detail, Ruby and Dottie made 4 men do things like run up to a random guy on the phone and yell, "Daddy! Daddy! Why did you leave me?" (both men hugged, though they did not know each other and the guy on the phone didn't know what was going on) and they made one guy run to a nearby hill, put on a gigantic pair of underpants, and yell, "In my big boy pants, I can do anything!" Overall, it was my favorite part of the Faire.

The items that I bought are awesome! I got a blue steel rose that is scented with rose essential oil, a little tiara on a pink ribbon (necklace), and a beautiful gypsy-type ankle bracelet that jingles every time I take a step. Along with those things, I got a bar of peppermint soap, a small blue bag of fairy dust, and a lavender eye pillow. I also got a beautiful book of fairy history ("Fairies and Fairy Stories: A History" by Diane Purkiss [see above picture]). It was rather expensive, but I thought it would be worth it. There was another fairy book that was a sort of journal of a fairy, that I thought was really cool, but I decided to buy it online later (Fairyopolis: A Flower Fairies Journal by Cicely Mary Barker). It is just like a journal, with little things glued in it and pictures. I thought it was really adorable.

I went on a pirate ship ride that was manned by a very, very cute boy. Although he was much older than me, his was sweet and even helped me down off the ride. *sigh*

My grandma, who made my sister and I flower crowns to wear for the Faire, might make us dresses for next year! I am, personally, extremely excited! Even if she ends up not making them, I'll probably dress up. I love wearing dresses and would like to start incorporating period clothing into my normal wardrobe. I especially love the belts that the women used to wear that had everything on them. Yesterday, I saw women carrying mugs, fans, parasols, their money, and oodles of other things on them. I would love to have one. I also plan to purchase a cloak-type thing to wear over my clothes in the winter. What I'm looking for has a hood and a clasp that closes at the neck (much like the one Jamie in "A Walk to Remember" wears during the play).

On a related note, I watched "A Walk to Remember", along with several other movies, this weekend. I love re-watching it because, even if it does have a bittersweet ending, it just makes me feel inspired. I don't know how to describe it, but it makes me feel good. Such a lovely movie.

Alright, it's time to put that lavender eye pillow to good use. Goodnight!

Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥

Day 4 and Renaissance Faire!

Day 4
Day 4 was okay in some ways, but disappointing in most. It's crazy; I thought I would be having a great time, but this Alpha program is a bit trying. Yesterday, I went up to the un-air conditioned library yet again. This is where I spent about 3 hours worrying to no end.

By this day, every person in the Alpha program that was there was supposed to run their science fair project idea by the teachers in charge. I went up with 3 ideas (all Environmental Science) the first time and all were rejected. The teacher I went to barely looked at the second and third ones before saying, "No." He wanted to change completely the one I liked most, the first one. So, I headed back to my table (where I was sitting by two people I had met in the days before, who were very helpful).

Again, the upperclassmen were walking around, trying to help those whose ideas did not get approved, which was mostly everyone. I ran each of my ideas past a few of them and they were pretty much misunderstood and/or shot down. Some people, however, actually seemed like they wanted to help me. The idea that I liked was made fun of and deemed "impractical". I worked and reworked each idea until I was ready to lose my mind.

I finally went up to the other teacher and told her that I had originally wanted to do something concerning Behavioral Science (that was the one thing that went right). She was incredibly helpful while she looked over my pages of ideas, set me up on a computer, and give me several nudges in the right direction. While I did not come up with a concrete idea, I was told that I could always e-mail her during the summer to confirm a new idea.

Thank goodness for helpful and encouraging teachers.
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Anyway, that is the past and I will try not to dwell on it, even though I will need to come up with something new. It's a good thing I have something to look forward to!

Tomorrow, I am going to the Renaissance Faire! My uncle has taken my sister and I, along with his friends and their grandson, for the past three years, although they have been going for quite some time. It's such a magical time and, this year, I'll be going in very, very partial costume. My grandma made my sister and I nearly matching flower crowns. They are beautiful and I plan to wear mine for upcoming years, as well (as long as it stays intact).

I love seeing all the performances (including my two favorites, Broon and Moonie), but my favorite part is going around to all the little shops. They have oodles of book, snack, candle, aromatherapy, and period costume shops, along with many others! I love looking at the little doodads these dedicated people come up with. Some of them are rather expensive, but they seem to be worth their price.

There is so much more I'd like to say about the RenFaire, but I'll save it for my recap either tomorrow or Sunday.

On a tangent, I watched Memoirs of a Geisha for the first time today. It was very beautiful and inspiring, while cruel and eye-opening. The geisha were so precise and elegant, if not horribly treated and suppressed. I really, really enjoy the beauty of Japanese culture, though I do not know about the government. Perhaps I'll further this topic in the future.

Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥

Days 2 and 3.

Day 2
Yesterday was eh. The Alphas were herded into the library (hotter than Hades, might I point out) and we were given tips on how to present our Science Fair Project by an Alpha upperclassman. She told us things like be loud, make charts and graphs, don't go crazy with the colors, et cetera. Guess how much the poster board that we have to get is. 15 dollars! Eeesh!



After the library pep talk, we shuffled into one of the many computer labs and learned about researching and sources and the like. Unfortunately, I was asked to give my name and a book title to one of the teachers presenting. I introduced myself and promptly made a complete fool of myself. Like an idiot, I said, "Twilight." And, as soon as it left my lips, I knew I was making a mistake. Really? Twilight? THAT'S THE BEST I COULD COME UP WITH? And, guess what? It wasn't even the first book that crossed my mind. First I thought of my favorite book, Picture Perfect (by Catherine Clark), then I thought of Harry Potter (by, duh, J. K. Rowling), and I landed on Twilight. Lord knows why I didn't say one of my first 2 thoughts. I don't know if any of the other freshies were laughing, but I know that some of the upperclassmen were. I'm really hoping that everyone forgets about that little ordeal, because I would like to keep that in the past. Ugh.



Then, we went into another computer lab and worked on Microsoft Excel with graphs. I left early from there, because I had the doctors appointment. It was odd, because that was the first time I've been there since my old doctor retired. Now, I have a male doctor. Fun. He sent in a student person to give us (my sister and I, because we went in at the same time) head-to-toe checks (listen to heart, check back for scoliosis, etc.). He left the room after asking us a bunch of questions and giving my sister her head-to-toe check. He had forgotten to do it for me. Oh, well. It wasn't that important. I hope. We didn't get any shots, but we do have some non-required ones that we should get in the near future.

Aaaanyway...

Day 3
Yet another failure to add to my list. Firstly, I fell asleep promptly after all 4 of my alarms went off. This put me 25 minutes behind schedule, so I had to rush. In doing so, I lost track of the time and missed the first bus I was supposed to take. So, I walked until I got to the next bus stop and waited there. I got on the train from there (no problems, thank goodness), and waited for my next bus. Which was late, mind you. So, the combination of my leaving early yesterday and getting there late this morning caused me not to know where I was supposed to go.

It took about 15 minutes of confusion for several very helpful people to get me in the right room. So, my lateness caused me to miss about 10 minutes of what the teacher had taught. Which is not good. I had not one clue what they were talking about, so I had to get more help from an upperclassman. I still didn't quite understand it by the time I left the room, but I plan to ask at some point.

On to the next computer lab. We recapped what we learned yesterday and were given the rest of the time to research for our project. The upperclassmen were coming around to see how we were doing and giving help. Both that came to me said that I probably shouldn't do Behavioral Science because 1. one of the teachers that has to approve the project doesn't like Behavioral Science and 2. I would need about 500 people to be test subjects (which I knew). I was discouraged from doing that category. And, of course, about 95% of my ideas (on both sides of 2 pieces of paper) were Behavioral Science!

This lead me to have to scramble to come up with new ideas in other categories. Did I mention that we have to tell them our project idea TOMORROW!?! Crazy, I know, but I persevered. I got on the bus, the train, and stopped to check the time that my next bus was supposed to arrive. "No arrival times available." Do you know how that feels? I walked home about 1.5 miles in 95 degree heat.

I worked on coming up with ideas for my science fair project for a while, then I walked with my twinerd partially (about 1/3 walking, 2/3 bus) to the mall to get lunch and to shop for a little bit. I bought a few things and, obviously, my feet hurt.

I had about 15 new ideas, I pitched them to my father, and he called quite a few of them "off-the-wall." Very encouraging, no? So, I tweaked some, got rid of most, and I'm down to 3! I'm leaning towards 1 in particular, but we'll see.

I didn't even mention that I believe I went with the wrong Alpha group, did I? I know, I know. Problem child.

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I hate when I go on and on and on about nothing special. It's bothersome. Either way, tomorrow is my last day of Freshmen Connections, I'm going to my grammy's house, and I will finally have time to work on whatever this school wants me to do. I'm beginning to wonder if I'll make it out of Freshman Year alive. I hope so.

Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥

I survived.

I DID IT! I DID IT! I DID IT!

I made it through my first day of Freshmen Connections!!! Plus, I took the bus and train without an adult for the first time. This is amazing!

I am so proud of myself, and I know that high school won't kill me! Sorry for all the !e!x!c!l!a!m!a!t!i!o!n !p!o!i!n!t!s!, I'm just really excited.

(Here's where I go into detail about everything that happened, so you can skip down to the line of asterisks, if you don't care.)

First, I met with my best friend, Omi, and we walked in together. We went into the auditorium and were separated, because I'm in Alpha Honors and, unfortunately, she is not. :(

Basically, the first semester is working only on the science fair project. I will be doing this project for the next four years, so, obviously, I need to pick a captivating topic. To add even more fun, I have to know what I want to do my project on in three days. Woo. But, luckily, I have two-ish-three ideas, so I should be good.

Then, we were given four papers (plain white, mind you; how boring) and directed into a classroom on the first floor. We went over the papers (about the science fair project, of course) and proceeded to a very, very hot computer lab. We actually researched for the project and I found some pretty cool stuff. After that, we were whisked away back to the auditorium. There, we were left alone with Alpha upperclassmen.

I have to be honest, they were pretty darn cool. They have an amazing camaraderie and build off each other. They are so funny and they strengthen my desire to be an Alpha. (By the by, it is so weird how we're "Alphas" now. It's like we're superior, which I don't want. I enjoy equality, thank you very much.) So, we were able to ask them anything we wanted about the Alpha program and life as an Alpha. They said that it could get frustrating sometimes (which I figured), but it was definitely worth it.

I was supposed to get out at 12:15, but they let us go at 10:50! So, I had to wait for Omi at McDonald's, which wasn't bad, because I was able to work on my project.

So, I may or may not have seen/slightly spoken to a VERY cute boy. Most likely, I did. ;) All we said was, "Thank you," and "You're welcome," but it was very meaningful, if that makes any sense. O.o

In short, I think I just might like high school.

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Anyway, I might post progress of my project on here. Possibly.

I know, if you read the account of my first day, that you may be thinking that I am nerdy or geeky or just plain weird. But, say what you will, because I am excited and no one can take that from me. Hmph! *stomps foot*

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow. I'm hoping for no shots, but my hopes may be unsuccessful. Eh.

Wish me luck! I might post each day, to recap my experiences at Freshmen Connections. Talk to you tomorrow!

Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥

Daydream

I want to have tea everyday. I want a simple table dressed in a lacey, ivory table cloth with light blue and white tea cups, saucers, and little plates. An ivory tiered stand with scones, muffins, cucumber sandwiches. A little pitcher filled with cream for the tea and a crystal bowl for sugar. Tiny spoons and embroidered napkins, a vase of colorful flowers. A seat for every one of my friends and light music playing in the background. <3

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Well.

Life has been seeming a little bit too good lately. But, nevertheless, I will enjoy it as long as I can.



Some amazing things that have happened recently:

I was assigned to read a book I've been wanting to read for months; I absolutely fell in love with it; and, beautifully, there's a sequel.



I got to go to Walker, MN, where they have at least 2 stores that are very near the kind that I'd like to open some day. Also, there is a tea room called The Enchanted Cottage at which you can reserve a tea time (either outside or in) and it's very Victorian. ♥



I learned that it doesn't make me a bad person not to finish every book I start.



I just got ice cream from Cold Stone. ♥



I realized that I am going to a great school, no matter if it wasn't the one I had originally planned on attending.



I am actually enjoying summer.



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It makes me very pleased that life is great now. I am thinking that it has always been great, though, but I had just not noticed it.



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I feel as if I have very distinct parts of my personality. They're actually very conflicting. One part of me loveloveloves all things having to do with Victorian times, lace, white, ivory, castles, sweetness, meadows, light, happiness, flowers, country, fields, dresses, skirts, love, and water. BUT, another part of me loves Linkin Park; slight darkness; mystery; "alternative", screaming-type music; and black. It's like good vs. evil in side of my head. It's quite surprising I haven't exploded yet.



I just felt the need to share that, because it's been on my mind. I've been thinking about how I'd like to present myself in high school. Obviously, I am against stereotypes and cliques, and all that, but I have to be something, right? I want to be quiet, loud, friendly, independent, bubbly, reserved, athletic, smart, serious, and silly. How one person can be all that is a mystery to me, but I have to try. I guess that I am all those things, but the people I've been around since Kindergarten (or before) understand that. They know I have different sides to me; but I'm afraid the people in high school might not.



I hate this pressure to be someone I'm not. But, maybe it's not an outside force contributing it. Maybe it's all in my head? I'm not sure.



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I just put quite a few (about 25) new songs onto my iPod. Woop!

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I will be attending Freshmen Connections at my school next week. That though thrills and terrifies me. It's great, because it will be a change to the routine I've fallen into, but it's scary because I (probably) won't know anyone in my division. It's yet another conflict. Right now, I am going to put an end to the conflict. It's going to be great, I'm going to meet new people, make friends, and be myself. The end. See? No negative thoughts. I can do it.

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I went swimming today. And, though I applied sunscreen liberally, I, unsurprisingly, burned. Again. I know I'm destined for skin cancer. Scary. I do try to protect myself, but to no avail.

*****

♫Who do you think you are, running around leaving scars? Collecting your jar of hearts, tearing them apart? You're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. Don't come back for me; don't come back at all.♫

^^^Great song.^^^

That reminds me, I wrote another song a few weeks ago. I'm not sure what to call it, but it has a lot of "I love you"s, so I guess that's a good enough title. I know, I know. A love song? Yes, I happen to be very fond of them, so shush. It's not about anyone particular. Or is it? The world may never know. Also, while I'd like to share it, it would have to be in audio form (because you can't appreciate it fully without hearing it). Which means I would be putting myself singing onto the internet, where people I know could be watching. Which I'm not sure I'm ready to do just yet.

Although, I do love to sing and I don't think I'm bad. So, perhaps. Hmm. I would need to get the instrumental part of it out of my head and into reality. I'm not sure how to go about doing that. Darn it

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I hate doing this, because I have a record for failing, but I am going to promise that I will write at least every other day. It helps that I can do it from my brand-spanking-new DROID now, though. Okey-dokey, later, Mater.

Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥

Update

Ah, the dance.

It was absolutely fantastic! The theme was "City of Dreams", so the ground was decorated to be a street, there were streetlights, and there were skyscrapers with characatures of us on them. We got the DJ we usually get, Ernie Torres, who is amazing and hilarious. I will put up pictures eventually. I ended up dancing with 2 boys, both of which were during the playing of our class song (Ernie played it twice). (I won't name them or say anything else about it, because I plan to put a link to this blog on the FaceBook.) I did get one rejection, but it's alright.

Overall, the night was incredible.

I only have 2 days of school left. Monday is Memorial Day; Tuesday we're going to the park, so it shouldn't really count; Wednesday is normal; and Thursday we have a breakfast and then we go home. I can't believe how nostalgic I am. I didn't even get everyone to sign my ribbons yet! I came to my school in Kindergarten and have been with pretty much the same people for 9 years. Too many crushes, dramas, and petty fights, but the good outweighs the bad. I can't believe that I might not see some of these people ever again. That bothers me.

In recent news, some of my family has moved in with us, so that's pretty cool. It's nice to have a little change like that once in a while. My immediate family is going on vacation to the same place we go every year in a couple weeks! I love that place.

I think I just hurt my sister's feelings. Darn it.

Alright, I'll post again tomorrow. Later, Mater.

Bloggity Blog

I like that I have a public blog now. Because, even if people don't read it, I know that they can. And that just makes me that much happier. :)

School
My school last day ever in my life as an eighth grader will be June 4th, the day of my graduation. I have mixed feelings about this, like I'm sure most people in my class have. I do want to graduate and keep progessing in my life, to high school, but I don't want to leave the familiarity of these people I've known for most of my life. I am truly going to miss each and every one of them. I don't care if they've been annoying or rude to me, most of them have been with me since kindergarten, at least. It's kind of scary to thing that I'll rarely see some of them again. It makes me want to redo the past 9 years and be nice to all of them. I know that I'll be going to high school with at least 5 of them, but that's only 1/10 of my entire class! It frightens me.

Hobbies
I recently decided that I am going to do as many things that I like to do as I can, and I will try to stop doing as many things that I don't like to do.

I wrote the above text 6 days ago. Today is the day of my graduation dance. I am quietly ecstatic. I got my nails painted a delicious red yesterday and my hair is in an amazing updo today. I'm going to apply my makeup in a little bit, get dressed, then go to have Mass and the (hopefully) best dance I've ever had.

Mmm... I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high, because I don't want to be let down. I don't care how many boys I dance with, because I feel incredible. My nails are unbelievably perfect, as is my hair, and my makeup will be silently seductive. Just kidding, it will look pretty natural. As I was sitting in the chair to get my hair done today, I realized that I am actually very pretty. It's true that I I don't have the best complexion. I don't have the prettiest hair. But, I am lovely. This feeling of self-worth makes me feel alive.

I will post pictures in days to come. Wish me a night of fun, good memories, and maybe a little romance.

Peace, love, and simplicity.

I know, I know.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know I haven't blogged recently. Sorry. I am just a bit unsatisfied with how my life is going right now. Okay, a lot unsatisfied is more like it. But, my problem is that I am frustrated with some things that I can't change. I won't mention them specifically (in case anyone I know ever reads this), but it does have to do with people sometimes.

Also, every so often, I get this awful feeling. It makes me feel so incredibly uncomfortable. I have it right now and it needs to go away. I feel so angry and irritable. I think it's affecting my twinsie sister. Ughhhhh. It's a feeling of dread and intense discomfort. You know that feeling you get if someone. Is really close the bridge of your nose and it's so uncomfortable and you can feel them there, even though they're not touching you? Imagine that on your entire back. It's all my nerve getting together and doing some awkward mamba group dance and I need it to stop for my mental health. I HATE complaining, yet I do it so often.


I know I wanted to make big changes on here, but I haven't gotten myself sorted out yet, so that will have to wait. I did ask Skye from Princess Portal to help me out with the blog. She responded promptly and I never responded back to her. I feel bad, so I will do so after I finish this.

Mostly, I'm justing waiting/ dreading for school to end. It's going to be awful with lots of unecessary tears, because I'm going to find ways to see the people I love no matter what. It's also going to feel like a huge weight will have been lifted off me. This wonderful feeling of relief will, of course, only be temporary because I will feel the looming cloud of high school. A new start. New people. New location. New everything.

I am going to change myself for the absolute best this summer. There will be no junior varsity sports where I am going, so, if I try out, it'll have to be for varsity teams. I am going to condition myself for one, some, or all of the following: basketball, volleyball, and bowling. I conflicted about sports nowadays, but that's a whole different issue.

I promise I will write more soon.

P, L, and S. <3

Sorry.

I am aware that I haven't posted in a while and I apologize. There, done.

Anyway, I have had quite a lot of things happen since I last posted. I've gone to Washington, D.C. with my class, which honestly felt kind of average. Yes, I did get to visit 3 states to which I've never been, but it wasn't as amazing as I thought it would be. The moment I stepped into my house, I reached for a letter saying that I got rejected second-round to my school of choice, so I am going to a school that I didn't really want to go to in the first place, but it's okay. I'm looking forward to high school in general.

I have decided that I am going to make some changes. I know I said I was going to change the template for the website and everything, but it hasn't happened yet. I am giving myself a deadline of 1 week to get that finished. Another change is that I am going to start eating fewer processed foods. I am also going to set aside a half hour every day to relax. I will be adding more exercise into my life and more sleep, because I know that I need it.

As I said previously, I am now accepting life as a princess in training, which is getting hard at some points. It just seems like, once I'm done with major sports, like basketball, volleyball, and softball (which will probably be in college, if I play in high school), life will be so much simpler. I won't have to worry about getting home late and doing my homework and showering twice a day some days. I'll still get exercise, but I won't be forced into doing things that I don't like to do.

My next post will be about something other than me. I promise it won't be 12 or so days later than this post.

Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥

Changes

I am changing around the template and colors of my blog today. Probably right after I finish writing this. I just feel that it's not fitting with what I've decided to do. Eventually, I am going to purchase a domain name and set up a website for myself that will have a blog on it, but this will do for now. I think if I focus mostly on one specific topic, it will bring a reader, because I don't believe I have any.

Anyway, my relatives are returning to their castle in the North today, so we're sending them off with a hope for a safe trip.

This post is short because I need to update the template and purpose of this blog. I might write another post later. We'll see.

Peace, love, and simplicity. <3

A Discovery

I recently Googled "how to feel like a princess" and came across an amazing website called "Princess Portal". A young Australian woman who dresses in Lolita fashion and makes her world magical writes these articles that really inspire me. I believe she has stopped writing for Princess Portal, but now writes on "The Lost Princess" The Lost Princess. She is amazing and you should check her out.

In other news, some of my family members from up North are in for my cousin's 2nd birthday. His name is Brady and he is the cutest. Instead of calling me Evelyn, he says "Ehhhm". It's adorable. Leave him happy birthday messages in the comments!

I'm still working on "Julie and Julia" for some reason. It never takes me this long to read a book. At most, it's usually about 5 days. I've been filling my time with reading PrincessPortal. Back to that topic, I really want to live like this girl. Her name is Skye and she lives in Perth, Australia. She calls her boyfriend the Prince, her mother the Queen, her father the King, and her house the palace. I love it. She makes every little thing magical. She has a doll named Charlotte, who likes to have tea and play with Skye's friends' dolls. She dresses in Lolita, so, kind of like a doll, and it is beautiful. I want to be like her someday.

That last paragraph made me think of something. That thing is that I have gotten way too lazy. I don't know why, but I know it started after I got sick last year. I've just felt really blah. I wish it would stop, but wishing is going to do nothing. I have to make it happen. So, this summer, I am going to go horseback riding a few times (which I have said), I am going to wear a lot of dresses (which I am absolutely in love with), and I am going to prepare for ye olde high school. I am going to be taking French (I love the language), and am so excited.

In the mean time, I would like to sign up for yoga classes or purchase a some yoga videos, to help me to center myself, improve my balance, improve my flexibility, and acquire more energy. I also plan to write a few songs and possibly record them (only on my little digital recorder, because I don't exactly have access to anything else). Lastly, I am going to start eating much healthier. I know that it will clear my skin, improve my health, and make me feel alive. A few years ago I gave up pop for Lent and it just sort of stuck. But, recently I have noticed that I've been drinking a lot of it (only Sierra Mist/Sprite). I plan to cut pop out of my diet and only drink water.

On a different note, I do want to start writing posts about something other than my life, because who wants to read that every post? If there is anyone reading, let me know what you'd like read. I was thinking some book reviews and/or recipes. I could also do missions! Like, one could be I have to make a sidewalk drawing for my whole block, so something like that, so I can post pictures and write about that. I think that would be pretty cool. I would let you guys (assuming there are people reading it) assign me some missions and such (none perverted, as I am still a minor, for any creepos out there).

Alrighty, I will leave you now. Go celebrate your inner princess. :)

Guest Blogger!

Bonjour. Today I am going to have a guest blogger (as the title may have pointed out)! She is the one, the only, my twin sister, Lizzie! You should know that she is an avid cat lover, she loves to draw and paint, she loves many male celebrities (all too old for her), and she is a great person. Without further ado, here she is!

Shalom. my name is Lizzie, and I am the twin sister of Evelyn. I love cats, have a few GREAT friends, love going out, love turtles, frogs. toads, pandas, green, blue, Taylor Lautner, Robert Pattinson, Ian Somerhalder, Adam Lambert, James Franco, and Jesse McCartney.(to name a few) i love making new friends, meeting cute, sensible boys, meeting any boys, meeting anyone, making new friends, meeting up with old friends, meeting cool people, meeting strange people, meeting funny people, meeting unique people, meeting famous people, meeting poor people, meeting young people, meeting old people, talking to people, looking at people. to put in simply, i just love people. when i get older, i want to have a job where i get to meet lots of people. because i love them! i think anyone you meet can help better you mentally, physically, and spiritually. and whenever i meet someone, i try to get something out of the experience. i love weird lists, strange laws, underdogs, strange phobias, drawing, typing, talking, listening, watching, hearing, and growing. i love being unique. one of my favorite quotes is: "When walking into a garden, pick up a bouquet of different flowers, not all the same ones.". it goes something like that. i love the movie Kung Fu Panda. i want to learn kung fu someday. i want to learn some kind of self defense.
I hope you learned something about me :) :D
peace out, girlscout.

Alrighty, I hope you liked her because she really is amazing. She inspires me to be a better person and I learned a lot about her from having her post on here. Let me know if you want to here from her again, but I think she is going to start a blog of her own soon.

Love you lots, like tater tots.
Peace, love, and simplicity,

Oops.

Alrighty. While I was brushing my teeth, I realized that it was Monday, the day on which I was supposed to post. By that point, it was about 40 minutes after 12, so Tuesday had already begun. That's alright. I apologize to any readers, if there are any.

So, I tried to make whipped cream today for some strawberry shortcake. It did not turn out as well as I would have hoped, but it tasted just fine. After consulting the interwebs, I discovered that I must have beaten it too much. *shrug* It tasted like whipped cream, so it's all good.

Today, took a shower, sat around, helped my dad around the house, put sunscreen on [because we were supposed to go out], put makeup on [which I regret because I felt disgusting, because I usually don't wear makeup that often], watched 'New Moon' for the millionth time, and ordered Chinese food for my family. Fun. Overall, not a contenting as it could have been.

I have been feeling very discontent lately. Like, right now, my shirt feels uncomfortable and I'm tired. Discontenting, no? I just feel like I need to do something. Anything. I need to finish the book I'm reading ('Julie and Julia'), I need to get my laundry done, I need to blah, blah, blah. I just need to move. I think it's vital to my mental health. I seriously want, but (here's where I start to make excuses) my bike is still up in the rafters of my garage, I have to do stuff around the house, the only place I have to go is the movie theatre (not really), which is far away and cost money, and I don't have anyone to go with (not true; I have my twinsie sister).

I hate making excuses for myself. Tomorrow I am going to get all the stuff I need done before 12 noon and get my bike so I can just ride around. Yep, that's the plan.

My dad recently updated my iPod Touch to 3 OS, or whatever it is, so I can copy and paste! I am so excited! I love copy and paste! But, it gets annoying when I'm reading an article and it keeps turning blue, asking me if I want to copy it. Plus, today Google started being weird on my iPod. The auto-fill or -search, or whatever it is, isn't working. :(

Eh. I need to improve my quality of life. I came across a phrase recently that inspired me (but apparently not enough to get moving) that said something like 'Live your dreams, instead of dreaming your life.' The actual phrase was worded more eloquently than my paraphrase, but you get the idea. This really applies to me because I would say that I spend about 70% of my time and energy on daydreaming, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it really gets in the way of things. I need to make the daydreams a reality! Like, I dream of being great at volleyball, but I never actually bought a volleyball so I can practice and make that dream a reality. I dream of having a great boyfriend, but I never go out (like, of my house), so how am I going to meet people?

I just need to go out on the town and be me. I definitely want to go horseback riding this summer, so maybe I'll meet a cute stable boy... ;)

Peace, love, and simplicity.

What I Have Learned From Country Music

With all the country music I've listened to, I was suppose I was bound to learn something.

1. Love like crazy, with every ounce of your heart.

2. Life isn't about where you end up, it's how you get there.

3. It's normal to be crazy.

4. Spend as much time as you can with your parents, because they won't be here forever.

5. Be a best friend.

6. Tell the truth.

7. Don't outsmart your common sense.

8. Pray.

9. If you work as hard as you can, it will pay off.

10. You can't overuse "I love you".

11. Everybody messes up sometimes.

12. When you find true love, don't give it up for anything.

13. You are beautiful.

14. Do what you love.

15. Whatever you're going through right now, it will get better.

16. You can't trust every cute boy you meet.

17. Those who love you can bring out the best in you.

18. Every heartache makes you who you are.

I know I have learned more than that, but those things really stick out to me. If you have anymore things you've learned from country music, feel free to leave a comment!

I saw "The Last Song" again yesterday. The experience with sort of bittersweet. Sweet because I was with 4 of my very best friends and I could catch what I missed the first time around. But, bitter because I knew what was going to happen and it wasn't as much of a thrill. Nonetheless, it was a great movie, as I said in my previous post.

I really want to be like Miley Cyrus's character in "The Last Song". She plays piano amazingly, can apparently write music, has a gorgeous boyfriend, got into an amazing school, is a vegetarian, protects animals (though, I couldn't understand why she was wearing leather shoes and a leather purse), and is her own person. She didn't change for anyone else, except herself.

I have some musical experience. I used to play the flute. I admit that I never wanted to practice, so I wasn't very good, but I didn't quit for 3 or 4 years. I listen to music constantly and get really into the lyrics. That's something I love so much about music, that you can put your heart and soul into every word you sing. Anyway, I would like to become a vegetarian someday and I am very environmentally conscious and do my part. But, one way that I am unlike Miley Cyrus's character is that I do sort of change for people. I have very, very firm beliefs, but sometimes I change the little things to please others. Like, I sometimes judge others, when I always say "Don't judge me." I feel much like a hypocrite and stop as soon as I catch myself.

Wow. That last paragraph is quite scrambled, but I like it that way.

Yesterday, I got a free makeover with my friends. I think I looked really pretty. It was kind of odd because I usually only wear a little mascara and powder, but they did the whole shebang, eye shadow, eyeliner, mascara, concealer, lip gloss. I did buy a really cool kit that has tons of makeup that I would actually wear. (http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp;jsessionid=272B9349BF291BA098B2AFB269A14336.papp1-app1?productId=xlsImpprod2040009)

Enough of my ramblings! Have a nice Easter, if you celebrate it. If not, have a pleasant weekend and prepare to hear from me on Monday!

Peace, love, and simplicity.

Hello, world.

Hello! This is my first ever public blog!

I am one girl on a mission to find herself in one lifetime. To tell you about myself, I'll just list some things that I like/love:

Taylor Swift

Country music

Cotton

Tim McGraw

Lady Antebellum

"Be Still" by Tim McGraw

Music

Writing

Writing Music

Dresses

Being a girl

Blue

Purple

Green eyes

Blue Eyes

Brown Eyes

Brown hair

Life

Inspiration

Books

Paper

Windows

America

Horses

Journals

Green

White

Love

Boys

Family

Friends

The internet

YouTube

Blogs

Magazines

Simplicity

The country

Farms

Take from that list what you will about me.

Anyway, today I saw "The Last Song" starring Miley Cyrus. Now, usually, I have a minor dislike for Miley Cyrus, but her character really inspired me. The entire movie inspired me. If you saw it, did you notice that all the main characters, besides Jonah, had blue eyes? It was glorious. If you haven't seen the movie, go do so as soon as you can! It had me on the verge of tears and my heart beating quickly for Liam Hemsworth as Will Blakelee. Mmm... He is a hunk! Miley is beautiful and I fell in love with "When I Look at You", which is on the soundtrack. Go see it!

After having seen that movie, I have decided that I really want to inspire people in my lifetime. Through music and writing. I think I really can. Two of my New Year's resolutions for 2010 are to learn how to play guitar and learn how to play piano. Somehow, this has gotten delayed, but I will get around to it because it means so much to me. I have written a song or two and I used to write poetry all the time. That was, like, my thing when I was younger. I still have my blue TechDeck notebook full of acrostics.

Alrighty, prepare for another post either tomorrow or Saturday!

Peace, love, and simplicity.