Update

Ah, the dance.

It was absolutely fantastic! The theme was "City of Dreams", so the ground was decorated to be a street, there were streetlights, and there were skyscrapers with characatures of us on them. We got the DJ we usually get, Ernie Torres, who is amazing and hilarious. I will put up pictures eventually. I ended up dancing with 2 boys, both of which were during the playing of our class song (Ernie played it twice). (I won't name them or say anything else about it, because I plan to put a link to this blog on the FaceBook.) I did get one rejection, but it's alright.

Overall, the night was incredible.

I only have 2 days of school left. Monday is Memorial Day; Tuesday we're going to the park, so it shouldn't really count; Wednesday is normal; and Thursday we have a breakfast and then we go home. I can't believe how nostalgic I am. I didn't even get everyone to sign my ribbons yet! I came to my school in Kindergarten and have been with pretty much the same people for 9 years. Too many crushes, dramas, and petty fights, but the good outweighs the bad. I can't believe that I might not see some of these people ever again. That bothers me.

In recent news, some of my family has moved in with us, so that's pretty cool. It's nice to have a little change like that once in a while. My immediate family is going on vacation to the same place we go every year in a couple weeks! I love that place.

I think I just hurt my sister's feelings. Darn it.

Alright, I'll post again tomorrow. Later, Mater.

Bloggity Blog

I like that I have a public blog now. Because, even if people don't read it, I know that they can. And that just makes me that much happier. :)

School
My school last day ever in my life as an eighth grader will be June 4th, the day of my graduation. I have mixed feelings about this, like I'm sure most people in my class have. I do want to graduate and keep progessing in my life, to high school, but I don't want to leave the familiarity of these people I've known for most of my life. I am truly going to miss each and every one of them. I don't care if they've been annoying or rude to me, most of them have been with me since kindergarten, at least. It's kind of scary to thing that I'll rarely see some of them again. It makes me want to redo the past 9 years and be nice to all of them. I know that I'll be going to high school with at least 5 of them, but that's only 1/10 of my entire class! It frightens me.

Hobbies
I recently decided that I am going to do as many things that I like to do as I can, and I will try to stop doing as many things that I don't like to do.

I wrote the above text 6 days ago. Today is the day of my graduation dance. I am quietly ecstatic. I got my nails painted a delicious red yesterday and my hair is in an amazing updo today. I'm going to apply my makeup in a little bit, get dressed, then go to have Mass and the (hopefully) best dance I've ever had.

Mmm... I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high, because I don't want to be let down. I don't care how many boys I dance with, because I feel incredible. My nails are unbelievably perfect, as is my hair, and my makeup will be silently seductive. Just kidding, it will look pretty natural. As I was sitting in the chair to get my hair done today, I realized that I am actually very pretty. It's true that I I don't have the best complexion. I don't have the prettiest hair. But, I am lovely. This feeling of self-worth makes me feel alive.

I will post pictures in days to come. Wish me a night of fun, good memories, and maybe a little romance.

Peace, love, and simplicity.

I know, I know.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know I haven't blogged recently. Sorry. I am just a bit unsatisfied with how my life is going right now. Okay, a lot unsatisfied is more like it. But, my problem is that I am frustrated with some things that I can't change. I won't mention them specifically (in case anyone I know ever reads this), but it does have to do with people sometimes.

Also, every so often, I get this awful feeling. It makes me feel so incredibly uncomfortable. I have it right now and it needs to go away. I feel so angry and irritable. I think it's affecting my twinsie sister. Ughhhhh. It's a feeling of dread and intense discomfort. You know that feeling you get if someone. Is really close the bridge of your nose and it's so uncomfortable and you can feel them there, even though they're not touching you? Imagine that on your entire back. It's all my nerve getting together and doing some awkward mamba group dance and I need it to stop for my mental health. I HATE complaining, yet I do it so often.


I know I wanted to make big changes on here, but I haven't gotten myself sorted out yet, so that will have to wait. I did ask Skye from Princess Portal to help me out with the blog. She responded promptly and I never responded back to her. I feel bad, so I will do so after I finish this.

Mostly, I'm justing waiting/ dreading for school to end. It's going to be awful with lots of unecessary tears, because I'm going to find ways to see the people I love no matter what. It's also going to feel like a huge weight will have been lifted off me. This wonderful feeling of relief will, of course, only be temporary because I will feel the looming cloud of high school. A new start. New people. New location. New everything.

I am going to change myself for the absolute best this summer. There will be no junior varsity sports where I am going, so, if I try out, it'll have to be for varsity teams. I am going to condition myself for one, some, or all of the following: basketball, volleyball, and bowling. I conflicted about sports nowadays, but that's a whole different issue.

I promise I will write more soon.

P, L, and S. <3