Right now, I have this heart-aching-breath-is-caught-in-my-throat feeling. I believe it's because I have the immense need to hug this certain person. Hmm.
Today, while eventful, had very few noteworthy events. I got up, started making a calendar for August, ran a bunch of errands with my father, had a slight fiasco, rented 6 movies, and watched one and a fifth of said movies.
The fiasco. Long story short, it involved my sister getting angry at me concerning paper, but it ended happily with some ice cream.
Yesterday, I went swimming again! The water was refreshing at first, but it quickly became frigid. I went to my grammy's after, which was also fun. :)
I recently stumbled upon a song called "The Only Exception" by Paramore. For some odd reason, it makes me think about my graduating class.
I've been thinking a lot about regrets lately. It could be because I just watched "I Love You, Beth Cooper", but I think it started before then. I'll expand that thought soon, but I'm typing this on my phone because my computer is angry, so it's a bit frustrating.
TTFN.
Peace, love, and simplicity. <3
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Thinking.
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Sunday, July 25, 2010
Renaissance Faire!
This year's Bristol Renaissance Faire was awesome! I wore my blue and purple flowered dress, that has a layer of tulle which gives the skirt a slightly poofy look. I love it.
Let's start from the beginning, shall we? The clouds made my sister and uncle, along with the other Faire-goers a bit weary about the conditions of the day, but I was confident that it wouldn't rain much more. The sky did indeed perk up and let the sun shine down for a while. It was quite comfortable.
We got there just after the opening ceremony and had to wait awhile for my uncle's friends to come. When we did get into the Faire, my sister and I split off from the group to shop for about an hour. We found our group at one of the many Gypsy Geoff shows that occurred that day. My uncle's friend's wife's grandson even got to be part of the show and challenged Geoff for a duel.
After that, we walked around some more and got lunch. My sister and I shared a bowl of garlic mushrooms and a bread stick and, while they weren't very filling, they were delicious. We saw Moonie after that, which I said recently was one of my favorite shows. I don't remember the order of the rest of the day, but I do know what happened.
All the shows that we watched are Moonie, Barely Balanced Acrobatics (very entertaining), part of Gypsy Geoff, and the Washing Well Wenches. The Washing Well Wenches was, by far, my favorite show. This year was the first I had seen it and it was absolutely hilarious! Both the women (wenches), Dottie and Ruby, reminded me of people I know or have seen movies of. They were so entertaining and they really got the audience involved. Though I won't go into detail, Ruby and Dottie made 4 men do things like run up to a random guy on the phone and yell, "Daddy! Daddy! Why did you leave me?" (both men hugged, though they did not know each other and the guy on the phone didn't know what was going on) and they made one guy run to a nearby hill, put on a gigantic pair of underpants, and yell, "In my big boy pants, I can do anything!" Overall, it was my favorite part of the Faire.
The items that I bought are awesome! I got a blue steel rose that is scented with rose essential oil, a little tiara on a pink ribbon (necklace), and a beautiful gypsy-type ankle bracelet that jingles every time I take a step. Along with those things, I got a bar of peppermint soap, a small blue bag of fairy dust, and a lavender eye pillow. I also got a beautiful book of fairy history ("Fairies and Fairy Stories: A History" by Diane Purkiss [see above picture]). It was rather expensive, but I thought it would be worth it. There was another fairy book that was a sort of journal of a fairy, that I thought was really cool, but I decided to buy it online later (Fairyopolis: A Flower Fairies Journal by Cicely Mary Barker). It is just like a journal, with little things glued in it and pictures. I thought it was really adorable.
I went on a pirate ship ride that was manned by a very, very cute boy. Although he was much older than me, his was sweet and even helped me down off the ride. *sigh*
My grandma, who made my sister and I flower crowns to wear for the Faire, might make us dresses for next year! I am, personally, extremely excited! Even if she ends up not making them, I'll probably dress up. I love wearing dresses and would like to start incorporating period clothing into my normal wardrobe. I especially love the belts that the women used to wear that had everything on them. Yesterday, I saw women carrying mugs, fans, parasols, their money, and oodles of other things on them. I would love to have one. I also plan to purchase a cloak-type thing to wear over my clothes in the winter. What I'm looking for has a hood and a clasp that closes at the neck (much like the one Jamie in "A Walk to Remember" wears during the play).
On a related note, I watched "A Walk to Remember", along with several other movies, this weekend. I love re-watching it because, even if it does have a bittersweet ending, it just makes me feel inspired. I don't know how to describe it, but it makes me feel good. Such a lovely movie.
Alright, it's time to put that lavender eye pillow to good use. Goodnight!
Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥
Friday, July 23, 2010
Day 4 and Renaissance Faire!
Day 4
Day 4 was okay in some ways, but disappointing in most. It's crazy; I thought I would be having a great time, but this Alpha program is a bit trying. Yesterday, I went up to the un-air conditioned library yet again. This is where I spent about 3 hours worrying to no end.
By this day, every person in the Alpha program that was there was supposed to run their science fair project idea by the teachers in charge. I went up with 3 ideas (all Environmental Science) the first time and all were rejected. The teacher I went to barely looked at the second and third ones before saying, "No." He wanted to change completely the one I liked most, the first one. So, I headed back to my table (where I was sitting by two people I had met in the days before, who were very helpful).
Again, the upperclassmen were walking around, trying to help those whose ideas did not get approved, which was mostly everyone. I ran each of my ideas past a few of them and they were pretty much misunderstood and/or shot down. Some people, however, actually seemed like they wanted to help me. The idea that I liked was made fun of and deemed "impractical". I worked and reworked each idea until I was ready to lose my mind.
I finally went up to the other teacher and told her that I had originally wanted to do something concerning Behavioral Science (that was the one thing that went right). She was incredibly helpful while she looked over my pages of ideas, set me up on a computer, and give me several nudges in the right direction. While I did not come up with a concrete idea, I was told that I could always e-mail her during the summer to confirm a new idea.
Thank goodness for helpful and encouraging teachers.
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Anyway, that is the past and I will try not to dwell on it, even though I will need to come up with something new. It's a good thing I have something to look forward to!
Tomorrow, I am going to the Renaissance Faire! My uncle has taken my sister and I, along with his friends and their grandson, for the past three years, although they have been going for quite some time. It's such a magical time and, this year, I'll be going in very, very partial costume. My grandma made my sister and I nearly matching flower crowns. They are beautiful and I plan to wear mine for upcoming years, as well (as long as it stays intact).
I love seeing all the performances (including my two favorites, Broon and Moonie), but my favorite part is going around to all the little shops. They have oodles of book, snack, candle, aromatherapy, and period costume shops, along with many others! I love looking at the little doodads these dedicated people come up with. Some of them are rather expensive, but they seem to be worth their price.
There is so much more I'd like to say about the RenFaire, but I'll save it for my recap either tomorrow or Sunday.
On a tangent, I watched Memoirs of a Geisha for the first time today. It was very beautiful and inspiring, while cruel and eye-opening. The geisha were so precise and elegant, if not horribly treated and suppressed. I really, really enjoy the beauty of Japanese culture, though I do not know about the government. Perhaps I'll further this topic in the future.
Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥
Day 4 was okay in some ways, but disappointing in most. It's crazy; I thought I would be having a great time, but this Alpha program is a bit trying. Yesterday, I went up to the un-air conditioned library yet again. This is where I spent about 3 hours worrying to no end.
By this day, every person in the Alpha program that was there was supposed to run their science fair project idea by the teachers in charge. I went up with 3 ideas (all Environmental Science) the first time and all were rejected. The teacher I went to barely looked at the second and third ones before saying, "No." He wanted to change completely the one I liked most, the first one. So, I headed back to my table (where I was sitting by two people I had met in the days before, who were very helpful).
Again, the upperclassmen were walking around, trying to help those whose ideas did not get approved, which was mostly everyone. I ran each of my ideas past a few of them and they were pretty much misunderstood and/or shot down. Some people, however, actually seemed like they wanted to help me. The idea that I liked was made fun of and deemed "impractical". I worked and reworked each idea until I was ready to lose my mind.
I finally went up to the other teacher and told her that I had originally wanted to do something concerning Behavioral Science (that was the one thing that went right). She was incredibly helpful while she looked over my pages of ideas, set me up on a computer, and give me several nudges in the right direction. While I did not come up with a concrete idea, I was told that I could always e-mail her during the summer to confirm a new idea.
Thank goodness for helpful and encouraging teachers.
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Anyway, that is the past and I will try not to dwell on it, even though I will need to come up with something new. It's a good thing I have something to look forward to!
Tomorrow, I am going to the Renaissance Faire! My uncle has taken my sister and I, along with his friends and their grandson, for the past three years, although they have been going for quite some time. It's such a magical time and, this year, I'll be going in very, very partial costume. My grandma made my sister and I nearly matching flower crowns. They are beautiful and I plan to wear mine for upcoming years, as well (as long as it stays intact).
I love seeing all the performances (including my two favorites, Broon and Moonie), but my favorite part is going around to all the little shops. They have oodles of book, snack, candle, aromatherapy, and period costume shops, along with many others! I love looking at the little doodads these dedicated people come up with. Some of them are rather expensive, but they seem to be worth their price.
There is so much more I'd like to say about the RenFaire, but I'll save it for my recap either tomorrow or Sunday.
On a tangent, I watched Memoirs of a Geisha for the first time today. It was very beautiful and inspiring, while cruel and eye-opening. The geisha were so precise and elegant, if not horribly treated and suppressed. I really, really enjoy the beauty of Japanese culture, though I do not know about the government. Perhaps I'll further this topic in the future.
Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Days 2 and 3.
Day 2
Yesterday was eh. The Alphas were herded into the library (hotter than Hades, might I point out) and we were given tips on how to present our Science Fair Project by an Alpha upperclassman. She told us things like be loud, make charts and graphs, don't go crazy with the colors, et cetera. Guess how much the poster board that we have to get is. 15 dollars! Eeesh!
After the library pep talk, we shuffled into one of the many computer labs and learned about researching and sources and the like. Unfortunately, I was asked to give my name and a book title to one of the teachers presenting. I introduced myself and promptly made a complete fool of myself. Like an idiot, I said, "Twilight." And, as soon as it left my lips, I knew I was making a mistake. Really? Twilight? THAT'S THE BEST I COULD COME UP WITH? And, guess what? It wasn't even the first book that crossed my mind. First I thought of my favorite book, Picture Perfect (by Catherine Clark), then I thought of Harry Potter (by, duh, J. K. Rowling), and I landed on Twilight. Lord knows why I didn't say one of my first 2 thoughts. I don't know if any of the other freshies were laughing, but I know that some of the upperclassmen were. I'm really hoping that everyone forgets about that little ordeal, because I would like to keep that in the past. Ugh.
Then, we went into another computer lab and worked on Microsoft Excel with graphs. I left early from there, because I had the doctors appointment. It was odd, because that was the first time I've been there since my old doctor retired. Now, I have a male doctor. Fun. He sent in a student person to give us (my sister and I, because we went in at the same time) head-to-toe checks (listen to heart, check back for scoliosis, etc.). He left the room after asking us a bunch of questions and giving my sister her head-to-toe check. He had forgotten to do it for me. Oh, well. It wasn't that important. I hope. We didn't get any shots, but we do have some non-required ones that we should get in the near future.
Aaaanyway...
Day 3
Yet another failure to add to my list. Firstly, I fell asleep promptly after all 4 of my alarms went off. This put me 25 minutes behind schedule, so I had to rush. In doing so, I lost track of the time and missed the first bus I was supposed to take. So, I walked until I got to the next bus stop and waited there. I got on the train from there (no problems, thank goodness), and waited for my next bus. Which was late, mind you. So, the combination of my leaving early yesterday and getting there late this morning caused me not to know where I was supposed to go.
It took about 15 minutes of confusion for several very helpful people to get me in the right room. So, my lateness caused me to miss about 10 minutes of what the teacher had taught. Which is not good. I had not one clue what they were talking about, so I had to get more help from an upperclassman. I still didn't quite understand it by the time I left the room, but I plan to ask at some point.
On to the next computer lab. We recapped what we learned yesterday and were given the rest of the time to research for our project. The upperclassmen were coming around to see how we were doing and giving help. Both that came to me said that I probably shouldn't do Behavioral Science because 1. one of the teachers that has to approve the project doesn't like Behavioral Science and 2. I would need about 500 people to be test subjects (which I knew). I was discouraged from doing that category. And, of course, about 95% of my ideas (on both sides of 2 pieces of paper) were Behavioral Science!
This lead me to have to scramble to come up with new ideas in other categories. Did I mention that we have to tell them our project idea TOMORROW!?! Crazy, I know, but I persevered. I got on the bus, the train, and stopped to check the time that my next bus was supposed to arrive. "No arrival times available." Do you know how that feels? I walked home about 1.5 miles in 95 degree heat.
I worked on coming up with ideas for my science fair project for a while, then I walked with my twinerd partially (about 1/3 walking, 2/3 bus) to the mall to get lunch and to shop for a little bit. I bought a few things and, obviously, my feet hurt.
I had about 15 new ideas, I pitched them to my father, and he called quite a few of them "off-the-wall." Very encouraging, no? So, I tweaked some, got rid of most, and I'm down to 3! I'm leaning towards 1 in particular, but we'll see.
I didn't even mention that I believe I went with the wrong Alpha group, did I? I know, I know. Problem child.
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I hate when I go on and on and on about nothing special. It's bothersome. Either way, tomorrow is my last day of Freshmen Connections, I'm going to my grammy's house, and I will finally have time to work on whatever this school wants me to do. I'm beginning to wonder if I'll make it out of Freshman Year alive. I hope so.
Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥
Yesterday was eh. The Alphas were herded into the library (hotter than Hades, might I point out) and we were given tips on how to present our Science Fair Project by an Alpha upperclassman. She told us things like be loud, make charts and graphs, don't go crazy with the colors, et cetera. Guess how much the poster board that we have to get is. 15 dollars! Eeesh!
After the library pep talk, we shuffled into one of the many computer labs and learned about researching and sources and the like. Unfortunately, I was asked to give my name and a book title to one of the teachers presenting. I introduced myself and promptly made a complete fool of myself. Like an idiot, I said, "Twilight." And, as soon as it left my lips, I knew I was making a mistake. Really? Twilight? THAT'S THE BEST I COULD COME UP WITH? And, guess what? It wasn't even the first book that crossed my mind. First I thought of my favorite book, Picture Perfect (by Catherine Clark), then I thought of Harry Potter (by, duh, J. K. Rowling), and I landed on Twilight. Lord knows why I didn't say one of my first 2 thoughts. I don't know if any of the other freshies were laughing, but I know that some of the upperclassmen were. I'm really hoping that everyone forgets about that little ordeal, because I would like to keep that in the past. Ugh.
Then, we went into another computer lab and worked on Microsoft Excel with graphs. I left early from there, because I had the doctors appointment. It was odd, because that was the first time I've been there since my old doctor retired. Now, I have a male doctor. Fun. He sent in a student person to give us (my sister and I, because we went in at the same time) head-to-toe checks (listen to heart, check back for scoliosis, etc.). He left the room after asking us a bunch of questions and giving my sister her head-to-toe check. He had forgotten to do it for me. Oh, well. It wasn't that important. I hope. We didn't get any shots, but we do have some non-required ones that we should get in the near future.
Aaaanyway...
Day 3
Yet another failure to add to my list. Firstly, I fell asleep promptly after all 4 of my alarms went off. This put me 25 minutes behind schedule, so I had to rush. In doing so, I lost track of the time and missed the first bus I was supposed to take. So, I walked until I got to the next bus stop and waited there. I got on the train from there (no problems, thank goodness), and waited for my next bus. Which was late, mind you. So, the combination of my leaving early yesterday and getting there late this morning caused me not to know where I was supposed to go.
It took about 15 minutes of confusion for several very helpful people to get me in the right room. So, my lateness caused me to miss about 10 minutes of what the teacher had taught. Which is not good. I had not one clue what they were talking about, so I had to get more help from an upperclassman. I still didn't quite understand it by the time I left the room, but I plan to ask at some point.
On to the next computer lab. We recapped what we learned yesterday and were given the rest of the time to research for our project. The upperclassmen were coming around to see how we were doing and giving help. Both that came to me said that I probably shouldn't do Behavioral Science because 1. one of the teachers that has to approve the project doesn't like Behavioral Science and 2. I would need about 500 people to be test subjects (which I knew). I was discouraged from doing that category. And, of course, about 95% of my ideas (on both sides of 2 pieces of paper) were Behavioral Science!
This lead me to have to scramble to come up with new ideas in other categories. Did I mention that we have to tell them our project idea TOMORROW!?! Crazy, I know, but I persevered. I got on the bus, the train, and stopped to check the time that my next bus was supposed to arrive. "No arrival times available." Do you know how that feels? I walked home about 1.5 miles in 95 degree heat.
I worked on coming up with ideas for my science fair project for a while, then I walked with my twinerd partially (about 1/3 walking, 2/3 bus) to the mall to get lunch and to shop for a little bit. I bought a few things and, obviously, my feet hurt.
I had about 15 new ideas, I pitched them to my father, and he called quite a few of them "off-the-wall." Very encouraging, no? So, I tweaked some, got rid of most, and I'm down to 3! I'm leaning towards 1 in particular, but we'll see.
I didn't even mention that I believe I went with the wrong Alpha group, did I? I know, I know. Problem child.
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I hate when I go on and on and on about nothing special. It's bothersome. Either way, tomorrow is my last day of Freshmen Connections, I'm going to my grammy's house, and I will finally have time to work on whatever this school wants me to do. I'm beginning to wonder if I'll make it out of Freshman Year alive. I hope so.
Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥
Monday, July 19, 2010
I survived.
I DID IT! I DID IT! I DID IT!
I made it through my first day of Freshmen Connections!!! Plus, I took the bus and train without an adult for the first time. This is amazing!
I am so proud of myself, and I know that high school won't kill me! Sorry for all the !e!x!c!l!a!m!a!t!i!o!n !p!o!i!n!t!s!, I'm just really excited.
(Here's where I go into detail about everything that happened, so you can skip down to the line of asterisks, if you don't care.)
First, I met with my best friend, Omi, and we walked in together. We went into the auditorium and were separated, because I'm in Alpha Honors and, unfortunately, she is not. :(
Basically, the first semester is working only on the science fair project. I will be doing this project for the next four years, so, obviously, I need to pick a captivating topic. To add even more fun, I have to know what I want to do my project on in three days. Woo. But, luckily, I have two-ish-three ideas, so I should be good.
Then, we were given four papers (plain white, mind you; how boring) and directed into a classroom on the first floor. We went over the papers (about the science fair project, of course) and proceeded to a very, very hot computer lab. We actually researched for the project and I found some pretty cool stuff. After that, we were whisked away back to the auditorium. There, we were left alone with Alpha upperclassmen.
I have to be honest, they were pretty darn cool. They have an amazing camaraderie and build off each other. They are so funny and they strengthen my desire to be an Alpha. (By the by, it is so weird how we're "Alphas" now. It's like we're superior, which I don't want. I enjoy equality, thank you very much.) So, we were able to ask them anything we wanted about the Alpha program and life as an Alpha. They said that it could get frustrating sometimes (which I figured), but it was definitely worth it.
I was supposed to get out at 12:15, but they let us go at 10:50! So, I had to wait for Omi at McDonald's, which wasn't bad, because I was able to work on my project.
So, I may or may not have seen/slightly spoken to a VERY cute boy. Most likely, I did. ;) All we said was, "Thank you," and "You're welcome," but it was very meaningful, if that makes any sense. O.o
In short, I think I just might like high school.
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Anyway, I might post progress of my project on here. Possibly.
I know, if you read the account of my first day, that you may be thinking that I am nerdy or geeky or just plain weird. But, say what you will, because I am excited and no one can take that from me. Hmph! *stomps foot*
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow. I'm hoping for no shots, but my hopes may be unsuccessful. Eh.
Wish me luck! I might post each day, to recap my experiences at Freshmen Connections. Talk to you tomorrow!
Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥
I made it through my first day of Freshmen Connections!!! Plus, I took the bus and train without an adult for the first time. This is amazing!
I am so proud of myself, and I know that high school won't kill me! Sorry for all the !e!x!c!l!a!m!a!t!i!o!n !p!o!i!n!t!s!, I'm just really excited.
(Here's where I go into detail about everything that happened, so you can skip down to the line of asterisks, if you don't care.)
First, I met with my best friend, Omi, and we walked in together. We went into the auditorium and were separated, because I'm in Alpha Honors and, unfortunately, she is not. :(
Basically, the first semester is working only on the science fair project. I will be doing this project for the next four years, so, obviously, I need to pick a captivating topic. To add even more fun, I have to know what I want to do my project on in three days. Woo. But, luckily, I have two-ish-three ideas, so I should be good.
Then, we were given four papers (plain white, mind you; how boring) and directed into a classroom on the first floor. We went over the papers (about the science fair project, of course) and proceeded to a very, very hot computer lab. We actually researched for the project and I found some pretty cool stuff. After that, we were whisked away back to the auditorium. There, we were left alone with Alpha upperclassmen.
I have to be honest, they were pretty darn cool. They have an amazing camaraderie and build off each other. They are so funny and they strengthen my desire to be an Alpha. (By the by, it is so weird how we're "Alphas" now. It's like we're superior, which I don't want. I enjoy equality, thank you very much.) So, we were able to ask them anything we wanted about the Alpha program and life as an Alpha. They said that it could get frustrating sometimes (which I figured), but it was definitely worth it.
I was supposed to get out at 12:15, but they let us go at 10:50! So, I had to wait for Omi at McDonald's, which wasn't bad, because I was able to work on my project.
So, I may or may not have seen/slightly spoken to a VERY cute boy. Most likely, I did. ;) All we said was, "Thank you," and "You're welcome," but it was very meaningful, if that makes any sense. O.o
In short, I think I just might like high school.
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Anyway, I might post progress of my project on here. Possibly.
I know, if you read the account of my first day, that you may be thinking that I am nerdy or geeky or just plain weird. But, say what you will, because I am excited and no one can take that from me. Hmph! *stomps foot*
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow. I'm hoping for no shots, but my hopes may be unsuccessful. Eh.
Wish me luck! I might post each day, to recap my experiences at Freshmen Connections. Talk to you tomorrow!
Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Daydream
I want to have tea everyday. I want a simple table dressed in a lacey, ivory table cloth with light blue and white tea cups, saucers, and little plates. An ivory tiered stand with scones, muffins, cucumber sandwiches. A little pitcher filled with cream for the tea and a crystal bowl for sugar. Tiny spoons and embroidered napkins, a vase of colorful flowers. A seat for every one of my friends and light music playing in the background. <3
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Friday, July 16, 2010
Well.
Life has been seeming a little bit too good lately. But, nevertheless, I will enjoy it as long as I can.
Some amazing things that have happened recently:
I was assigned to read a book I've been wanting to read for months; I absolutely fell in love with it; and, beautifully, there's a sequel.
I got to go to Walker, MN, where they have at least 2 stores that are very near the kind that I'd like to open some day. Also, there is a tea room called The Enchanted Cottage at which you can reserve a tea time (either outside or in) and it's very Victorian. ♥
I learned that it doesn't make me a bad person not to finish every book I start.
I just got ice cream from Cold Stone. ♥
I realized that I am going to a great school, no matter if it wasn't the one I had originally planned on attending.
I am actually enjoying summer.
*****
It makes me very pleased that life is great now. I am thinking that it has always been great, though, but I had just not noticed it.
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I feel as if I have very distinct parts of my personality. They're actually very conflicting. One part of me loveloveloves all things having to do with Victorian times, lace, white, ivory, castles, sweetness, meadows, light, happiness, flowers, country, fields, dresses, skirts, love, and water. BUT, another part of me loves Linkin Park; slight darkness; mystery; "alternative", screaming-type music; and black. It's like good vs. evil in side of my head. It's quite surprising I haven't exploded yet.
I just felt the need to share that, because it's been on my mind. I've been thinking about how I'd like to present myself in high school. Obviously, I am against stereotypes and cliques, and all that, but I have to be something, right? I want to be quiet, loud, friendly, independent, bubbly, reserved, athletic, smart, serious, and silly. How one person can be all that is a mystery to me, but I have to try. I guess that I am all those things, but the people I've been around since Kindergarten (or before) understand that. They know I have different sides to me; but I'm afraid the people in high school might not.
I hate this pressure to be someone I'm not. But, maybe it's not an outside force contributing it. Maybe it's all in my head? I'm not sure.
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I went swimming today. And, though I applied sunscreen liberally, I, unsurprisingly, burned. Again. I know I'm destined for skin cancer. Scary. I do try to protect myself, but to no avail.
*****
♫Who do you think you are, running around leaving scars? Collecting your jar of hearts, tearing them apart? You're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. Don't come back for me; don't come back at all.♫
^^^Great song.^^^
That reminds me, I wrote another song a few weeks ago. I'm not sure what to call it, but it has a lot of "I love you"s, so I guess that's a good enough title. I know, I know. A love song? Yes, I happen to be very fond of them, so shush. It's not about anyone particular. Or is it? The world may never know. Also, while I'd like to share it, it would have to be in audio form (because you can't appreciate it fully without hearing it). Which means I would be putting myself singing onto the internet, where people I know could be watching. Which I'm not sure I'm ready to do just yet.
Although, I do love to sing and I don't think I'm bad. So, perhaps. Hmm. I would need to get the instrumental part of it out of my head and into reality. I'm not sure how to go about doing that. Darn it
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I hate doing this, because I have a record for failing, but I am going to promise that I will write at least every other day. It helps that I can do it from my brand-spanking-new DROID now, though. Okey-dokey, later, Mater.
Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥
Some amazing things that have happened recently:
I was assigned to read a book I've been wanting to read for months; I absolutely fell in love with it; and, beautifully, there's a sequel.
I got to go to Walker, MN, where they have at least 2 stores that are very near the kind that I'd like to open some day. Also, there is a tea room called The Enchanted Cottage at which you can reserve a tea time (either outside or in) and it's very Victorian. ♥
I learned that it doesn't make me a bad person not to finish every book I start.
I just got ice cream from Cold Stone. ♥
I realized that I am going to a great school, no matter if it wasn't the one I had originally planned on attending.
I am actually enjoying summer.
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It makes me very pleased that life is great now. I am thinking that it has always been great, though, but I had just not noticed it.
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I feel as if I have very distinct parts of my personality. They're actually very conflicting. One part of me loveloveloves all things having to do with Victorian times, lace, white, ivory, castles, sweetness, meadows, light, happiness, flowers, country, fields, dresses, skirts, love, and water. BUT, another part of me loves Linkin Park; slight darkness; mystery; "alternative", screaming-type music; and black. It's like good vs. evil in side of my head. It's quite surprising I haven't exploded yet.
I just felt the need to share that, because it's been on my mind. I've been thinking about how I'd like to present myself in high school. Obviously, I am against stereotypes and cliques, and all that, but I have to be something, right? I want to be quiet, loud, friendly, independent, bubbly, reserved, athletic, smart, serious, and silly. How one person can be all that is a mystery to me, but I have to try. I guess that I am all those things, but the people I've been around since Kindergarten (or before) understand that. They know I have different sides to me; but I'm afraid the people in high school might not.
I hate this pressure to be someone I'm not. But, maybe it's not an outside force contributing it. Maybe it's all in my head? I'm not sure.
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I just put quite a few (about 25) new songs onto my iPod. Woop!
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I will be attending Freshmen Connections at my school next week. That though thrills and terrifies me. It's great, because it will be a change to the routine I've fallen into, but it's scary because I (probably) won't know anyone in my division. It's yet another conflict. Right now, I am going to put an end to the conflict. It's going to be great, I'm going to meet new people, make friends, and be myself. The end. See? No negative thoughts. I can do it.
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I went swimming today. And, though I applied sunscreen liberally, I, unsurprisingly, burned. Again. I know I'm destined for skin cancer. Scary. I do try to protect myself, but to no avail.
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♫Who do you think you are, running around leaving scars? Collecting your jar of hearts, tearing them apart? You're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. Don't come back for me; don't come back at all.♫
^^^Great song.^^^
That reminds me, I wrote another song a few weeks ago. I'm not sure what to call it, but it has a lot of "I love you"s, so I guess that's a good enough title. I know, I know. A love song? Yes, I happen to be very fond of them, so shush. It's not about anyone particular. Or is it? The world may never know. Also, while I'd like to share it, it would have to be in audio form (because you can't appreciate it fully without hearing it). Which means I would be putting myself singing onto the internet, where people I know could be watching. Which I'm not sure I'm ready to do just yet.
Although, I do love to sing and I don't think I'm bad. So, perhaps. Hmm. I would need to get the instrumental part of it out of my head and into reality. I'm not sure how to go about doing that. Darn it
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I hate doing this, because I have a record for failing, but I am going to promise that I will write at least every other day. It helps that I can do it from my brand-spanking-new DROID now, though. Okey-dokey, later, Mater.
Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥
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