Some amazing things that have happened recently:
I was assigned to read a book I've been wanting to read for months; I absolutely fell in love with it; and, beautifully, there's a sequel.
I got to go to Walker, MN, where they have at least 2 stores that are very near the kind that I'd like to open some day. Also, there is a tea room called The Enchanted Cottage at which you can reserve a tea time (either outside or in) and it's very Victorian. ♥
I learned that it doesn't make me a bad person not to finish every book I start.
I just got ice cream from Cold Stone. ♥
I realized that I am going to a great school, no matter if it wasn't the one I had originally planned on attending.
I am actually enjoying summer.
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It makes me very pleased that life is great now. I am thinking that it has always been great, though, but I had just not noticed it.
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I feel as if I have very distinct parts of my personality. They're actually very conflicting. One part of me loveloveloves all things having to do with Victorian times, lace, white, ivory, castles, sweetness, meadows, light, happiness, flowers, country, fields, dresses, skirts, love, and water. BUT, another part of me loves Linkin Park; slight darkness; mystery; "alternative", screaming-type music; and black. It's like good vs. evil in side of my head. It's quite surprising I haven't exploded yet.
I just felt the need to share that, because it's been on my mind. I've been thinking about how I'd like to present myself in high school. Obviously, I am against stereotypes and cliques, and all that, but I have to be something, right? I want to be quiet, loud, friendly, independent, bubbly, reserved, athletic, smart, serious, and silly. How one person can be all that is a mystery to me, but I have to try. I guess that I am all those things, but the people I've been around since Kindergarten (or before) understand that. They know I have different sides to me; but I'm afraid the people in high school might not.
I hate this pressure to be someone I'm not. But, maybe it's not an outside force contributing it. Maybe it's all in my head? I'm not sure.
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I just put quite a few (about 25) new songs onto my iPod. Woop!
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I will be attending Freshmen Connections at my school next week. That though thrills and terrifies me. It's great, because it will be a change to the routine I've fallen into, but it's scary because I (probably) won't know anyone in my division. It's yet another conflict. Right now, I am going to put an end to the conflict. It's going to be great, I'm going to meet new people, make friends, and be myself. The end. See? No negative thoughts. I can do it.
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I went swimming today. And, though I applied sunscreen liberally, I, unsurprisingly, burned. Again. I know I'm destined for skin cancer. Scary. I do try to protect myself, but to no avail.
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♫Who do you think you are, running around leaving scars? Collecting your jar of hearts, tearing them apart? You're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. Don't come back for me; don't come back at all.♫
^^^Great song.^^^
That reminds me, I wrote another song a few weeks ago. I'm not sure what to call it, but it has a lot of "I love you"s, so I guess that's a good enough title. I know, I know. A love song? Yes, I happen to be very fond of them, so shush. It's not about anyone particular. Or is it? The world may never know. Also, while I'd like to share it, it would have to be in audio form (because you can't appreciate it fully without hearing it). Which means I would be putting myself singing onto the internet, where people I know could be watching. Which I'm not sure I'm ready to do just yet.
Although, I do love to sing and I don't think I'm bad. So, perhaps. Hmm. I would need to get the instrumental part of it out of my head and into reality. I'm not sure how to go about doing that. Darn it
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I hate doing this, because I have a record for failing, but I am going to promise that I will write at least every other day. It helps that I can do it from my brand-spanking-new DROID now, though. Okey-dokey, later, Mater.
Peace, love, and simplicity. ♥
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